I don't want to grow up yet.

I've been thinking about the next year that is ahead of me and to be honest, it's starting to scare me a little.
Ideally, by this time next year I'll have graduated from college, moved out with my boyfriend and have a grown up job. I used to think about all that and be so excited, but now the more I think about it and the more I think about how I have to grow up, it makes me nervous.

Today is a new month and today I'm going to start to get my life on a better track. I want to be better prepared for for whats to come. I want to start to grow up even though I'm so afraid.

I'm going to start to get healthy and take care of my self more. I will no longer be the lazy bum I love so much to be.

-Cait